Trial and error

Since I could remember I have had dreams that I'm flying and I take control and realize that I am not conscious. I looked this up and apparently I astral project which makes sense. I have been trying to control my consciousness once I go to sleep with some success and some disappointment. I'm just going to go full steam ahead and continue with my astral projection practicing and hopefully I get full control of what I want.

Day 2 of astral practicing

Last night was day 2 of me trying to astral project. I did the basics, relaxed my body and cleared my mind. I ended back on the road from the last night very bright it looked like a cross road I started getting the falling felling again and started to focus again on an anchor as I started falling I grabbed the anchor. Once the falling feeling stopped I ended up being somewhere with smoke and some weird entities that were black and had a weird figure and they were swimming through the air/smoke and it seemed like they started to antagonize me so I started praying and they didn't disappear so I grabbed one and ripped it apart then another came at me and I grabbed it then spikes came out of its body, the weird thing is I felt the pain in my hands before and after my trip. it was weird and so vivid

Astral practice

So last night I started practicing astral projection, seeing as all my vivid dreams all point to OBE. As I laid in bed I relaxed my body, I focused on my limbs and muscles. I then cleared my mind and dosed off. When I was conscious so to speak I was on a road I then started falling before I could walk forward. I saw a metronome and focused on that, as the pendulum got closer to me I grabbed it and stopped falling and was floating as I tried to focus my vision I realized I was floating over my own body, as soon as I did I fell on to my self and woke up. It felt so real I'm going to try again tonight :)

yet another vivid dream

last night I went to sleep around 1am. In my dream I was at a table and there were many people there and they were talking about something but I cant remember about what. I jumped out of my seat and the people there came at me as if I had done something wrong so I screamed out YOUR NOT REAL! and I put out my hands and a net that seemed to shoot out of my hands trapped and held them all in place. I jumped into the air and started flying though the trees slowly then I told my self COME ON! they are gonna catch up I need to go warp speed so I shot out like a shooting star through the clouds again it seemed like thick smoke as I appoached a light I jumped out of bed... as I layed there I noticed my bedroom door was closing slowly so I turned on the lights and got out of bed and searched the house the only other thing I found was they other bedroom door was closed... I looked at the time it was 2:41am I went back to sleep...

Another strange dream

Some time in early April I had another vivid dream. I was in a house walking through a hall way when I approached the kitchen, As I entered I heard a voice tell me put it under the microwave and start it! so I did as I pressed the button a panel from the kitchen wall came off and a person said now were all trapped! you shouldn't have done that we are doomed... then they said follow us we have to figure out what we can do to stop it. so I did, the panel led to a labyrinth of tunnels and pipes when all of a sudden I ended up in a field and who was there... the same demon from my dream in late march. as soon as I saw it I reached towards my back and I made a hand full of blades and swords appear, I quickly flung them into the air and as I lunged towards the hellion all the blades landed into the ground except for two that I caught just in time to strike the beast! swords against claws, sparks erupted! We flew back and landed and in a blink of an eye went back at our joust, what seemed an eternity ended with in minutes. I had won the battle I was content but as I looked upon the demon it laughed and said it wasn't over, Just before it disappeared I noticed a trinket that it guarded during the battle and it came to me! That must be its soul! and with a thrust of my sword I ripped it apart from the demon as it howled in agony. once I had possession of it I felt an evil presence about me and the trinket latched it self to my soul. as I thought of what to do I remembered the other people that were scared of the demon so I went to them not realizing that my appearance had changed into a demonic form as I approached them they all bellowed in fear I told them that there was nothing to fear they didn't believe me so I did the only thing that I knew they would trust... I ripped the trinket out of my soul, at this my true form came back and I threw the trinket to the floor and told them this is your only escape. As I turned back I saw a man that was surrounded in a glorifying light that filled me with warm sensations he told me son there is still much for you to do and many people to save now is not your time, as he said that I jumped back and took off into flight and flew through clouds that were thick as smoke as I got to a bright light I jolted out of bed and awoke from my dream with a feeling that I still cant describe...

A dream I had a while back

On March 31 I had a weird dream that A demon was chasing me through a Farm land of some sort and I was running through fields of corn and he would catch up and try to torture me, There was somebody else there besides The demon but I couldn't tell who it was. Then he caught up to me and I realized I was dreaming so I made a claws just like his and when he came at me he started rubbing his claws in my chest and asked does this hurt? At that point I flared out my claws and stabbed him in the chest then rubbed his wound with the cold metal and asked him "does it hurt?" as I chopped off his right arm at that point I seemed to jump up and start flying a bit slow at first but then extremely fast through what seemed like clouds and then I woke up with a jolt,it felt so real.

Disappointed after 4 years

So where to start... Four years ago I started at a company named Winn Dixie. I was running down on my luck and moving from job to job. I never really had a stable job, if it wasn't me messing things up by doing or saying something stupid I would up and quit because I got bored. I stumbled upon Winn Dixie as I got fired from a culinary position. I got a call from a meat specialist named Eddy 2 days before I got axed. I left the messages saved on my phone by coincidence, and as soon as I got laid off I panicked, I mean what does a person do when they loose a job. As I got to my car I remembered the message I had so I called, and spoke to Eddy and landed the job I was nervous because I was going into a profession I knew little to none about but something inside me wanted to get out of the restaurant business. I started out and I liked it I mean I really really liked it, helping people, talking to customers, giving them cooking advice, that was the easy part the hard part was cleaning but just like every job there's perks and down sides. I worked with a four other guys Tom, he was the market manager until he retired (not his choice but that best left for another day) Devis the assistant market manager (aka dutch bag) Richey a young kid that thought he knew everything in life but was missing the whole picture and my friend that taught me the ropes Wayne. I worked at store 231 for about a year until I got transferred dew to favoritism but if that hadn't happened I would have been screwed because shortly after that store closed and a lot of good people lost there jobs. So I got transferred to store 218 and now the true story begins... When I first got there I thought it was going to be easy... But what was in store for me was far from it. I went in to meet my new manager his name is Charles Marlow (good man just a workaholic and a psychopath) I get in and he introduces me to everyone there, Willy the assistant meat manager(an Awesome person that I thank God for putting in my path) Freddy (my padrino well not really but we can pretend) and Derrick (a pathological lier) so after the introductions it was right to work. For a few days were a little touch and go because it seemed that what ever I tried to do to help it was and still is not good enough for Cris. When something went and goes wrong I get blamed in one way or another... After a few months Derrick got transferred to another store and we got a new guy, man did we get a bunch of new guys. It seems that the position of meat Assosiate is a revolving door. Things started getting better between me and cris because I want to think he started trusting me, key word in that last sentence WANT but I was and still am wrong. A lot of strange and bogus things happened in between the past 3 years that I have been working at Winn Dixie store 218 but none were as crazy and sad as 2 1/2 weeks ago. So I go into work on a Sunday early morning when I get there cris is running around like usual and as soon as I get in I ask him what needs to get done he hands me a list and tells me I'll get u the meat then asks me about some grinds he found I told him I don't know what he was talking about so he went in and grabbed what he needed at the moment, when he came out he asked me if me or willy did a case and a half of skirts I said no they haven't been moving so he said what the fuck is going on here there gone so I went to the back to double check and they weren't there he calls the MOD(manager on duty) which was Jon they talk I continue my day a few days later I get called upstairs to the abc room and basically indirectly accused of everything that happened and I was shocked... I could have been pissed off But I wasn't I was more hurt then anything... After all the crap I had to and still have to deal with, meat getting thrown at me the verbal abuse and the other illegal things that shouldn't be happening in a market and I stay quiet... I'm just tired of it, all of it and I no longer have the drive that I once did to go in and help people and do what I loved doing... Now I just go in do my job and 100% the 10% was destroyed at that meeting on that day :( but on a better note I'm looking for something better, hopefully I can get what I want.